is one that still brings heartache to those who were close with him, and even those who only watched him on their TVs. The left a gaping hole in the lives of many when he . One of those strongly affected was his former assistant, .

In a newly released memoir, Woolever has shared more personal information, including . Woolever reveals that . He seemed to be trying to avoid the pain he felt from photos of his partner, , kissing another man.

Woolover sent him a message of , saying "". But Bourdain's death came shortly after.

When he responded, "I'll live, and we'll survive," I assumed that the "we" meant him and Asia, their complicated relationship. At 4:25 the next morning, my phone vibrated on the windowsill next to my bed, waking me from a light sleep. It was Kim, Tony's agent. When I answered the call, she said, "Tony has taken his life."

Woolever was immediately in denial,. She also reveals that , but he always did it in a sarcastic tone.

Bourdain's death continues to be a sore subject for anyone who knew him. His impact and legacy carry on seven years later.